BY SIMONE J. SMITH
I am unsure if it was the eclipse, the fact that I turned the big 40, or the retrograde that we are currently experiencing; whatever it is, I have been in a state of flux the last few weeks, and although it has not been affecting my day to day, I am curious as to why my thought patterns have been the way they are. I have been in this mood to make some great changes in my life, and my changes started in my home.
Much to my partner’s dismay, my housing situation right now is what you would call, upside down and inside out. I have paperwork everywhere, clothes everywhere, paintbrushes and paint cans in random parts of my home; I swear it is just chaos. I am usually very structured and organized; everything has its place, and if it is not where it is supposed to be, you will most definitely hear my mouth. So why does my house look so haphazard right now? Well, it is time to PURGE!
Have you looked in your closet and really taken account of what is in there? I can almost guarantee that you have clothes that you have not touched; your thought, “I will get around to wearing it,” but of course, you never do. So things just sit there, and then they pile up, and then you have less closet space, and you can’t find anything to wear, WHEN DOES IT STOP? Well, it stops when you decide that it is time to let go all of those things that you think you need, but you don’t ever use.
I have always been observant how people keep their homes, office space and cars; you can tell a lot about a person by the way they go about activities that are mindless for them. You begin to pick up on their patterns because the way a person does one thing is usually how they do everything. So, if you are a hoarder, of if you refuse to give away that dress/suit that has been sitting there unworn for 10 years, what other aspects of your life are you holding onto that are no longer serving you.
This week I really began to take stock of the clutter in my life, and how this related to my lived experience. I was not surprised when I began to notice direct similarities in the way I lived my life and the way that I hoarded clothing. I swear I have outfits from when I was in high school; I also discovered that I have some habits from high school that are still lingering in my life. They may not be necessarily harming me right now, but they are not helping me either.
As I began to load things into garbage bags, I found myself doing what I usually do, “I will still wear this I think?” I had to catch myself and say, “No Simone! You will not wear this, get rid of this.” As I attacked each drawer, I felt my energy clearing; it was the oddest thing. As I moved from drawer to drawer, it became easier to release parts of my existence that had meant so much to me at some point. I knew that I had outgrown the young woman who had once worn that extremely short, yellow mini skirt; I had grown into a woman of promise, success and purpose. It felt really good to put them all in a bag and bring them to donation depots in the Jane and Finch area.
I also realize that in order for the universe to deliver new energy into your life, you have to purge yourself of all the old energy. If not the universe will see that you are settled in your existence and deliver the same old life you have always lived.
Is it time? Is it time that you took that PURGE?